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I cry,

he hits,

I scream,

he kicks.

my ribs are bruised,

my arm is swollen,

my heart races,

time is frozen.

too many faces.

How can 1 man,

who i look much alike,

hit his daughter,

making her a motherless wife?

Opals && Gold

He knows what he's doing,

but not what I'll do,

somehow I can't find the way threw.

Mama holds me tight,

&& pulls me in close.

she tells me things that no one else knows.

my mind boggles,

he hit her too.

"Momma, what's the way threw?"

"I don't remember, just be quiet and Pray."

"I know that God's coming someday."

Hopefully soon.

"How can I be me if I don't even know who I am..."

June 04, 2008

THE HEAT IS ON!� I am getting my first experience with the hot weather here in the south.� Yesterday is was 88, today 94 and tomorrow it is going to be 97.� Thank God I’m leaving town to head to Atlanta, it’s only a high 93 for the weekend.� Yesterday I had to work outside all day.� We are getting our merchandise trailer ready to go on the road.� We had to inventory existing stock and then load it up with new merchandise, reorganize, and get it all cleaned up.� What I found working in the heat is that if you just move at a steady pace it’s not so bad.� Once you get over the creepy feeling of having sweaty underwear it’s all right.� I just reminisce about the days at Hartman’s and frying chicken in the heat.� Now, I only have to stand on an asphalt track with only adds about 20 degrees, the chicken fryer�was much hotter than that.

It is hard to fail, but it is worse

never to have tried to succeed.

�

June 3, 2008

Sunday night while working at JGSR I had the opportunity to take a “champ ride”.� I rode with one of the instructors in his car after we were done with all of our clients.� The first thing I told him when we were done was that I think he was speeding on pit road.� He took off so fast out of the pit and as you near the track all you see is the track banking up and the big white wall!!� I was a little nervous, but he just whipped that car up on the track and we were on our way.� Lap speeds at Lowe’s are about 170 miles per hour (that’s for trained professionals).� It was really fun!� It was hard for me to stay focused just sitting in the seat; I can’t imagine right now how it is driving!!� Most people who do the driving experience comment that they can’t imagine doing that for 400 laps.� They are usually exhausted after 8 laps.�

Feeling it build right now.

No reason.

Just fear.� And anxiety.� And a sickness in my stomach.� And omg flight response is kicking in big time.

fuck fuck fuck

i don't even know what i need to run from

fuck

So today Me && Mia spent the majority of our day writing, passing && recieving notes from eachother...it was 2 cute. I figured from this point on we would be pretty darn close but whose to say for sure. She did the sweetest thing 2day && left my given nickname "Patrick"�on the board in her 4rth prd. class && I seen it in my 5th prd. It had me smiling long && hard. It was 2 Cute! I call myself trynna top it by leaving a note behind the board with a riddle to go along with it to find it;; I must say it was pretty clever but too bad she is suspended 2m && wont be able to go on that "Treasure hunt" but it's ok..I guess I can say I might miss her, I probably will [[ Just a little bit]]

Im still not completely sure about this but all I know is she makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me happy! Weird I know but def. true. Don't get me wrong I love Sakara with all of my heart but something has fragmented our relationship to make me feel for another girl, especially Mia && it might just be Mia herself. Everything happens for a reason right? So maybe this has a purpose...maybe? It could make me 0r break me. I do know I don't want to lose my baby over someone, over Mia out of all ppl. God No! {Sigh}